Facts

* 73 More days until September 30th

* The flight to Kenya from Wisconsin is approximately 30hrs.

* Tanzania has 26 regions

* Reminder** Make list for packing

The Light of My Life

There is really something about when you completely stop doing something your passionate about that leaves a void. Lately especially, I have been craving a good writing session. I suppose the fulfillment lacks there due to my busy schedule and the uncontrollable speed of time. Getting closer, and closer, to graduation I envision myself having more time to write.

My brain has been on the verge of overloading many times in the recent months, I have so many moments where I'm like "AH! That's it! That's how I'll start my book!" Then, it's gone, on to the next thing. "AH! That's what the future holds!" (Right)

My devotion to my baby girl puts me in awe every day. I've yearned to be a mother forever it's just funny, what better time then now, when everything else is going on that's when life has the most surprises. Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, embracing the feeling that literally in less than 4.5 months I will have a degree, only makes the light shine brighter right in front of me. Someone find me some sunglasses that fit the occasion...  Make 'em Shiny ones too.

I have no clue how many readers I still have for this Blog. All I do know is through this program and the hectic life I've been living I'm really finding my way. Soon enough a Creative Visionary will be reborn... Did I mention with a degree!!

Ailments

If we as humans allow ailments to control us we turn into fearful, corrupted, and miserable beings. When I met someone I knew nothing else but fearlessness. I looked forward to the next adventure as if it were the next chapter in life. Now that there is fear everything that lingers in the air for longer than a second I find myself distrusting where we are headed.

Whether I am baking, cooking, opening a window, or want to spray anything (including perfume or light candles) you scatter. Repenting so, I advise you you're over reacting, reassure you you are strong, and encourage you that anything can be overcome. However you rebel in saying nothing without a cure can be overcome, and get unbearably irritable to the point where I disappear into solitude.

Picturing us so far from where you will find yourself five years from now, if the way of thinking does not change and adapt to a more positive way of a life, or even one year from now, it hurts. My heart aches imagining our lives without you, and the thought that you have allowed something to make you so weak leaves love powerless. I am a firm believer that ailments can be overcome. Right down to the panic, anxiety, and inability to breathe at all can overcome anything you set your mind to.

More importantly I see a point being missed, every moment you dodge something you fear it and think it will kill you instantly. Life never happens the way you would expect it. Try and reverse your thinking in a way that will allow your brain to say, "I'm not dead until I'm done fighting with my positive way of thinking." Or, "Nothing can kill me the way I think I'm going to die life's not that sympathetic and simple."

When I reflect on all the years in my life, that's what gets me over being afraid, and that's what helped me overcome situations I didn't even think were possible getting through. Although, my age may not be as ripe as yours there is an even comparison/perspective. Everyone lives there lives through experiences and from what I can tell... You and I are two opposites alike.

Unpublished

I find myself writing this post with every intention to leave it unpublished. My mind is in a cumbersome state and it helps to keep the consciousness stream flowing. I have to say most of my frustrations come from lacking something. Caress, finesse, and for both words lacking to be better describing how I'm really feeling Unloved.

Physically, I have to admit my body has changed. Everyone said it would happen and I suppose I never envisioned it feeling this way. Unsettled, dissatisfied, and down right weak. These feelings are unfortunate, you see, on the inside I feel like my old self. I still go through the daily mind steps to exercise, eat right, well kind of. My body craves certain things I cannot fully control.

Sugar, comforts, energy.

Allowing it to become ambitious and do things like register for a Turkey Trott and then eat an endless buffet meal following it on Thanks Giving. Guilt is perhaps another word to describe my daily feelings. I need more releases, more adrenaline to approach my daily tasks. Some things get my heart pumping, but very few can do it as rapidly as I need.

They're all just excuses. Every last sentence I come up with mentioning how this is for this, and that must be that way for that. Do I feel like I could run five miles? Not necessarily physically, but mentally? Can I swim more than 500 yards without taking an intermission? No, not right now. Could I before the baby? Yes, at one time.

How can I bring myself back to the time when I once felt great? Record myself dancing again, find a place to meditate, run to destinations, stretch, swim only on days off, and stop thinking in some way sugar will further my metabolism burning any fat at all. It won't.

Reality Check!

Stationery card

Garden Of Girl Birth Announcement

Shutterfly cards for Valentine's Day, Easter & Father's Day.

View the entire collection of cards.

Johnny Cupcakes

Since I was twelve years old I invented a dream for my future to eventually own my own greeting card company. There are many ways "All About Cake & Frosting" gets inspired being my future greeting card company. Since inventing the dream it has grown magnanimously into not only a card label, but, two characters in a children's book Cake & Frosting, as well as, a sponsor to an annual arts festival with a sanctuary for homeopathic healing.

There is always a simple way to start any big dream, and the greeting card part of my dream is the simple way All About Cake & Frosting will start. Just like Baz Luhrman makes a simple analogy to Sunscreen and the meanings to life. I also can parallel All About Cake & Frosting to meanings to life too. For example you cannot have a cake without frosting or it would just be a loaf of bread, or a muffin. Just like you cannot have a present without a card, if you do it's just a box with something inside, or nothing really meaningful at all.

Next Journey

Since putting Redemption Climb on stand by some things have changed. The one year anniversary from climbing Mt. Kilimanjaro hascome and passed. Slowly,but surely, a Bachelors in Entertainment Business is being attained, and I am subtly making plans to move

to Full Sail University's campus in March this coming year.

Seeing how my first journey to Mt. Kilimanjaro started off with a six month countdown, I am planning in the next six months to have a solid beginning to a post graduate plan with another countdown. I found out some very big news this past Thursday, and I'm not sure how I will proceed. It is always a big decision when deciding to take a new journey, and especially if you are planning to journey with someone new.

With the holidays coming I'm praying for some clarity to reveal itself to me. It is my only concern that with making travels that have such an impact on your life with a significant other- it can either make or break your relationship. When I moved to Grand Cayman, I moved alone. When I started at Full Sail University I was alone. Is it only understandable that I feel instinctually obligated to complete my mission in a career alone?

No one really plans on love. No one even hopes to be captivated by love all the time. But now, love has plans for me, and love is captivating all of my time. I feel the urge to scare it away (not just because it's Halloween), and I feel an inkling to run. Perhaps these feelings

are an act of selfishness desire that paints an imaginative picture of me having a successful career before a successful love life.

Stand By

Fiscally Redemption Climb is on stand by for next year. Stay tuned to any further updates regarding the last mission, which was accomplished- but needs to further penetrate into the future.

Spain is still on the calendar, the means of what organization Redemption Climb will be supporting are possibly the following.

United Way- US

WISE - Cayman

WWF- World WildLife Fund- UK

Also open for any other suggestions.

Please notify me if you are supporting any further organization that is in dire need of help.

Thank you.

Step One

The hardest step most of all. Step one: Especially in risk situations.

Step two: always follows step one with a trip up; Step three often might be a fall.

Always, though, remember steps four and five strive upward.

After falling it's only looking down to that learning experience that gets life by.

Side By Side

Catching up with this blog has been the never ending task. Just as many never ending tasks begin and then get set carefully side by side. Waiting for me to come back to them, slowly, I trudge along. Trying not to overload, be overloaded, or swamped over by any bit in my surroundings known as containment. My words twist themselves from my brain, down my arms, into my wrists, through my fingertips, and SPLOOGE! PLOP! KRRRPLUNK! The Keyboard.

I put these tasks side by side, ordered sentimentally chronological (to the best of my intentions), mostly advised by my surroundings. My surroundings do not forecast a certain task to complete at a certain moment, I say, "Kaflewy" and deal with it!

Kilimanjaro has helped me. Mother nature herself helped me weed out my life essentially of what I love, like, and lack. Kilimanjaro just kicked me in the pants and said, "HURRY UP!"

Critters

Every trip you go on brings new adventure, and with these adventures come critters. My African sister Ann and I discovered the revolting presence compelled by this female cheetah. She had no name, which I will name her now Melificent. Yes, after the evil queen in Sleeping Beauty... Her energy was just that striking! As she gnawed on her meat!! What a great honor it was to join Ann in these experiences. Thank-You again to all of my supporters.

* Billy Bones * One-3-4-5 Apparel * Funky Tang's Music

* Abicus * Out of the Bluez Botique * Glass Blower's Botique

* JET Nightclub * Passions Lingerie * Tiki Beach Bar

* Cayman Taffy Company * Lilly Store * Dairy Queen

* Island Ink Tattoo * Sports Supply * KPMG

* AL Thompsan's * International Travel * Frisbee Fiends

* Cayman 27 News * LIME * Cayman Distributors

Grand Cayman, Cayman Islands, BWI

Thank you all!

Extra special thanks to my mom, Lori Thiel, who has inspired me to be such a shining lady striving every day to make the world more peaceful!

Farmanator

These moments I had on in Tanzania, looking back, really remind me...

The good ole' Wisconsin Cows

Grazing through breakfast...

Close to heart

Finding a nice hole in the ground shortly after grazing...

Heart closed

Not much business this year, only business is business

Business was usual, is usual, always usual...

Holes in the ground, ground with the holes...

Don't Cha Know?

Would you like that toasted?? ( ha ha, Nick! )

The BIG One

Stella Point, the point of no return. Why do they call this moment Stella Point? I for some reason was thinking, it might be named after the Belgium wheat beer Stella Artois. Someone may have woken up with a killer hang over, then climbed Kili, then said, "Ahh! This point, this is Stella, my hangover!" (ha ha ha)

The big Kahuna, el Nino, el Chupacabra, the Greatness!! WHO IS IT?

After climbing six hours in sheer night we reached Stella Point. About 18,885 ft (5,756 m) magnificently high above the clouds. Amazingly, mother nature feels imprisoning as short winded as I was. From Stella Point we found ourselves still 45 minutes from Uhuru Peak.

Waking up at base camp Barafu (#4) at 11:30pm, about 15,000ft high, we begin to
ascend Uhuru Peak (19,395ft). Around sunrise we reach Stella Point. The clouds silhouetting Mt. Meru, and the boxing stance of yours truly, barely standing.

Throughout the entire climb I was grooving- it was easy with the serene surroundings positively throwing vibes back all around. The guides who shared our Kilimanjaro journey were phenomenal. We all enjoyed a very unique experience, and one by one summited at 7:00am, October 5th, 2010.

Today, completely exhausted, I hang on for dear life! This day, was the day, I decided to summit Mt. Kilimanjaro!

Mean Reads

Pent up

Groovin'

Feet breath neatly

Bobbin & Weavin'

in different retrospect

while mind's

Nervin' Swervin'Minervin

Towards that verb in

-Talk-

Freedom.

Volcano Passage

Finally arriving after getting lost just passed the Great Rift Valley, Kaboom!

One word to say to a volcano when you meet.

Large words can describe the exact appearance, but few can describe the f

eelings beyond jaw dropping.

It just so happened the day we decided to meet our first volcano a group numbering over 650 children was also climbing with us! We met blind students who, although, were only hiking to the side volcanic crator still flew by us on the trails. Blazing ahead filling the air with dust when I arrived, finally catching up with them, they asked, "what does it look like?" All I could respond was, "it looks like Mother Earth is smiling!"

"I see her teeth in the side cliff over there, and everything is very green. She may have just had a nice holsem meal of broccoli."

Longonot's peak you can see just near my forehead in this shot. The craters are so vast with

lucious greens, and just beyond it you can site Lake Nakuru. Beside lake Nakuru you see a white row. This white row are signs from a white rose farm. Kenya is the largest exporter in white roses in the world! While driving past this region to Lake Nakuru you can smell the

roses, very nice!!

Arrival

Day 1:

September 22nd finally in Kenya. We went to the Safari Orphanage to meet baby hippos, ostriches, cheetah, rhino, albino zebras, water buffalo, wildebeest, caterpillar, and lions.

It was the utmost privilege to pet a cheetah, and ostrich!!

The energy around such creatures is truly electric.

Energy Release

Body movement, although, majority random feels so natural. Suppose things that are random don't feel natural all the time, mostly inorganic, we shy away from randomness as humans. Or is it the random naturalness that makes us organic humans? The humans that no longer act in random kindness, movement, or otherwise are indeed the inorganic ones. (BAH ha ha)

Ok, side note apart from being philosophically swayed. Tomorrow is the September mark counting 21 days until Africa!!! I will be getting all my shots accept Thyphoid, on September 9th, I officially made a dentist appointment on the 16th, and my mom's planned soirée to celebrate my return is in full motion.

Jambo Bwana

This past weekend wrapped up Redemption Climb's efforts here in Cayman at Billy Bones! Special thanks goes out to everyone who attended, Billy Bones, MINX, and all who participated in the raffle. Prizes were sponsored by Passions Lingerie, Cayman Distributors, and yours truly contributed some TNT Fireworks!! (just to make things interesting) All in all about $360 was raised.

Including this weekends events Redemption Climb counts nearly ten events hosted over the summer! As far as the last Observer issue, with the Charity Bill 2010, I am really hoping Redemption Climb will be able to continue on as a summer fund raising tradition. Gathering

more people who are interested in creating charity ideas, events, and then

travelling spreading the good word about Cayman.

Culture is a gift, here in Cayman the population is really diverse. It would only make sense to have a global travelling organization that contributes to worldly causes that are relevant both local, and everywhere else to- everyone else that currently resides here. Redemption Climb would only also be seasonal to not take away from regular business, but to bring business/spirits up while in slow season.

Genuine hope will be seen from within, someone will recognize the ultimate potential here!

Protein

Protein is pushing it's way through my diet like a freight train. A freight train loaded with BBQ chicken, ribs, jerky, steak, burgers, fish, milk, nuts, and the list goes on. Meat has never been my first choice to eat, however, I feel stronger when I do. Just as strong as a bowl full of cherries! Cherries are a strong food, pff, HA ... Not without Meat!!!

My final times for the Stroke & Stride were pretty good accept for the last one I was disappointed. I must have just had cherries... kidding...

The first one I did in about 30min, the

second one only 32min, but the third one the night before I hardly got any sleep due to my t

wisted knee and a burglar scare. Yes, a burglar. Someone tried to break in to steel my bicycle. This makes the bike now three times attempted theft, all three times I recovered in vicarious ways. The police were there, it was nerve racking.

Anyway, my third time suffered at 39min with my goal being 35min I got teary at the finish. It's been unreal training on my own for this. Especially after the horse incident, I feel so fortunate to

still be continuing on.